Day 62 - My Past life

Well I have been writing well over a month and a bit now, and have not really told you much about myself, only that I have a broken heart and am quite an angry person at time. But I honestly say this, I am a good guy and have the best intentions. The picture is off a comic I collected when I was a kid, I loved it, every week, the excitment of going to the Newsagent to get it, God it was scary, I remember we had to order it and my surname was written in the corner of the comic, so as to know it was for me. Those were the days, for many years I was facinated by that shopkeeper. He was a miserable old man, who carried the 50's look well into the 80's, would always gripe at you in the shop, but I was jealous because of all the comics he had he could read to his hearts content! After that I used to tell people I wanted to be a shopkeeper. Alas what dreams come true.You see that fella Dan Dare had the right name and right attitude no bollox! Just do it!

Now an actor thats where the fun would be playing different people all the time, suit me to the ground. Now enough of the daydreaming Nomar.
'Its what the people wanna hear!' Let me ramble a little bit more tis been a while.
I must say when I played a good few gig with a band I was in the energy and fun been up on stage was excellent. I long for that, its a real rush! I would come off stage empty, having given it my all. Now Im not blowing my own horn or anything but it was a real thrill, and I look forward to doing it again.

In me is this artistic beast screaming to get out! I know it, but I fear that my middleclass up bringing with it's play it safe attitude killed it! But the beast grows, it had a small taste, there is so out there, all sorts of things going on, it's all out there for us to look at, if we stepped away from our fucking computers!
I have an idea for a photo project and as soon as I get a decent camera Im on it!
Though as soon as I wrote that, my mind shouted be FRUGAL MOTHERFUCKER!
So there you have it middleclass torment!
Show me the door I'm afriad of this, or do I want it?

As always I love you all, and leave you with possibly the greatest band around at the moment!


SEX ON FIRE..................FUCK YEAH!