This is me (well not really, I'm a guy) What can I say, I have to be honest this is why Im writing the blog to be honest at some level with myself! (That was for you Rob) I am still in love, love with someone who does not return it, someone who has moved on, and in knowing that It breaks the heart. It's like loosing a lot of money or something precious, you know you won't get it back. That is unless you win the lotto etc etc.I want to step outside of myself and have a good look at myself, from all angles, just to see how I operate on an ordinary day. I know I would hate who I am. The anger is welling up in me, I have shown weakness now all I want to do is punish myself for that mistake!
I hate myself right now!
I am sitting here in a hotel lobby laptop in lap, ipod on shuffle, and all I do is skip to the sad songs. I am gonna really hate myself in the morning, such a twat!
'Show me your sword lady, for I will fall on it gladly'
Please help me, my mind has lost it's sun and it scares the life outta me! I'm a fighter I am I swear but I have fought in all the wrong places and have lost and lost badly.
I know not many people read this, close friends and some more do, but I really have to say Im not afraid of been honest anymore!(Rob)
But I need some form of help, on what level I don't know, just know now I do.
Here is what I will sleep to tonight!
This man truly has a gift, one who hits on every note!
Im sorry if my words have been strong and troubling(perhaps they are not)but I have to speak whats on my mind!
Pray for me.
1 comment:
quick thought... Unrequited love hurts like hell. Its a bit like grieving. The person you're missing hasn't completely gone but it feels like a loss because you want them so much but can't be with them. So my question is... Why would you hate yourself for feeling sad or hurting? You're a human being. Stop beating youself up for being one and allow yourself feel upset. Adding hate and anger to the hurt is only gonna 'cause more hurt for yourself.....and eventually consume you totally. Let the air out every so often or you'll burst... and give yourself a break...
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