I am becoming someone I hate, I am spinning outta control. The only normality comes when I am alone locked away reading. I honestly don't know what's going on in my head! I really don't! How does one fall away, from being a good person to one who just see's wrong and negatives in everything? Now I do know myself that this is phase, yet this phase has gone on to long. What do you do to combat the tide of hate rising? Go out wipe on that fake smile laugh and joke with people you find you have nothing in common with? no no no!
I have to find my porpoise! So it's down to the sea with me! Let me drown in it's calmnessWell it's off to bed with me, the rain is falling again, the sun and warmth we have had has gone replaced by a muggyness like everything here caught in the middle hot wet or dull and wet. I know what a sweet spot I live in for the weather.
I go to bed on a stomach of popcorn, back again from 'The Dark Knight' great movie, really enjoyed it, but spoiled it with the dehydration I felt from the popcorn, ha ha!
Just to let you all know I have turned my comments radar open to all so look forward, to hearing what you have to say, I'm sure I can take it.
Night
Music today is sweet IAMX............... helps you feel good about yourself!
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1 comment:
you have always had the critical thing going on - but you usually express it towards/about others...not saying that you are/were wrong.
The tension behind your fake smile is visible to anyone who is interested enough to look. Most people are happy enough to deal with the surface.
...you did want comments.
B-
PS> Nothing wrong with reading - my current run rate is about 500 pages a week(!)...spot the loser:)
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