Day 95 (Two days in one)

Im rolling Saturday & Sunday into this one, Saturday was ok settling the nerves of a hangover by addressing the problem with more drink! not the answer and one that left me with more problems! F***

I recall an old episode of saved by the bell where Screech constantly repeats
'I must think before I act, I must think before I act'

Everything we do causes ripples, something happens! I sometimes feel that I have no control over my actions, am I some machine paving a path of emotional destruction across the battlefield that is my life? I often hear myself saving the last thing I want to do is cause 'Pain'! Am I some sick and twisted Masochist? I tell you I am not, and never shall be. I must think of my actions clearly, but then that would stop spontanaity, which I love! though with age I feel Im slowing down on that front.

So what is coming to a head in my thoughts is the process of 4o days and 40 nights avoid women all together, do the ostrich and bury my head in the sand, to love another one must love one self,

and I'm far off that, been taking to many hits that haved cut me down and left me sitting in a ground zero of myself. Though when one is down so low there is only one way to go.....up!

Which that much on my mind at present I felt it was time to step off the battlefield of reality, and seek solace in music, and what better way to do it than spend the evening with the God father of Grunge, Neil Young! Wow tell you what, the fella really goes heavy on the guitar, his ten min solo's where something to behold, I hope I have that energy when Im that old. It was great to see someone who clearly a living ledgend. I have a small list of music artists I want to see, and I've been slowly chipping away at it, though I can't seem to remember who is on it! Was a great gig and he finished with the Beatles - A day in the Life - you can imagine the energy he put across! Thanks Neil, I'll sleep happy (I hope)


Through all this fear and haze of life's questions I hold out for New York City, let me get buried in the madness of it, and forget my troubles!

3 days and counting........don't fret all I shall be keeping the blog going over in NYC.

Coming back to my opening paragraph I have just found a article on the BBC website

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/7475695.stm what do we look for in each other! The world is selling the wrong ideas to us all, sex sells but its a bad product with no refund!

Also this song from the Arctic Monkeys is playing in the background 'Leave before the lights come on' the singer Alex Turner's words can sting you with a guilt trip......

Now please don't get me wrong I've done no wrong, but my head is spinning right now, I have a further 94 days to get it right, Big Brother you reading?

Todays musical tastes comes from Texas and Ol Blighty, and my my the singer from Texas has some voice! I've also included the Last of the Shadow puppets, I know they've been knocking around these past few months but I have to say I do enjoy them old old school, check out the styles!


Shearwater..........................................Sail away with these delights
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The Last of the Shadow Puppets.....Style and music to boot! http://youtube.com/watch?v=_8YRx47oylM&feature=user